Baptisim

The Elders I have been speaking to with the LDS church asked me if we were ready to be baptised. He actually said, he felt it was time. On one hand its only been a few weeks, about 4 meetings with them, maybe 5, and we have only gone to church one time. Personally i dont feel like i am quite ready and im not sure my husband ever will be.

For all Tony speaks and agrees at the moment, its later on that he feels like he is wavering. And perhaps that is effecting me as well. He has been so against religion for so long, that even when i mentioned months ago i felt like i wanted to go to church he was so against it that i just dropped the subject. Now he seems to be ok, he went last week as well, But im not so sure he is ready to be a part of it. I know he made mention several times of just dropping me off.

In any event, i joined a forum that a E-Friend is part of. Natural Living for LDS’s. There are even two ladies from AK on there, though i only have seen one active. When the Elders asked me if i wanted to be baptised and confirmed, i didnt think to ask what prepare ment. So i asked the ladies in the forum. They were oh so kind enough to let me know what its all about. Prayer, of course, letting go of sins, reading the Book of Mormon, and quitting any inpurities that you put in your body. Oh know we all know what this means. Lina must quit drinking soda.

Ive always PLANNED on it. I just never seem to manage to acomplish that. But here is a huge light saying QUIT! QUIT! And so this is it guys. Talk me through this, I have about enough soda to last a week and a half and thats it….. Can I do this? I have to. So ill need alot of support from the penut gallery ( THATS YOU!) because for 10 years, ive been oh so terribly addicted to soda… and i like it alot…..

And to other preperations. Reading my chapters, going to church, sunday school and sacrament. And any other bad things in my life.

Oh and im happy to admit. I bought 3 skirts today. And im wearing one of them! I had to buy shorts to wear under because i feel so naked in skirts, even though they are long skirts, but the shorts make me feel better. So yayness for skirts. I feel so girly… i havent felt so girly in a while.

I know that this is right for me. That after so many years i finally feel like im part of something importaint. Something right. I want that for my children. And the Heavenly Father is telling me, that this is right, and this is what you need to do. I feel it. So this is what i have to do.

Blessed be Everyone.

I need a rant moment

First off to anyone who reads this, this was not a comment made by anyone who reads this blog. It was made on another blog. Second, i am not targeting anyone, i just really need a moment to rant.

Here goes.

Do you know how increadly insulted a person feels when this comment is made. Those are WONDERFUL photos, your camera takes great photos, what kind is it. This is a direct comment from my private blog ( the one that is 8 years old)

First of all.My camera is a great little camera, but it is ONLY a tool. The photos i take are good for several reasons. One i have worked for several YEARS learning how to take photos, challanging myself. reading, learning. making friends who are much better then I am. And im STILL learning, and i will be untill im gone. Second, I know how to post process. This is the time consuming work that you pay a private photographer for. The HOURS i spend digitally removing bruises, or food, or pimples, or freckles on a girl who hates them ( me) or whatever. Making the eyes pop, making the colors truer or brighter. THAT is why its so pretty.

My camera… it does a TINY amount of work. It captures the RAW image of what is before you. Meaning its the basics, no extra anything, just stops the motion of real life. The camera does the job of impriting what is going on in front of it into digital files. From there, I do the work. I add the color, the life, the pop, the sparkle and if its missing. I invent it there!

I am so tired of people saying how good of a camera I have. Know what, i bet you cant tell which shots are done with one of my P&S VS my Pro Grade camera. Know what, i pull off crappy shots with the big guy too. And i pull off amazing shots with the P&S. It all depends on the moment. Granted i pull off 90% of the good shots with the big guns but still.

Its really insulting to be told you have such a good camera. Because put my camera in the hands of someone who dosnet know what they are doing and the shots dont come off well. Even my husband, with a camera on a tripod, settings allready set and he can mess up the photo, Just by pushing the button. Its more skill then just holding down a button. Its determing apature ( focal points) exposure ( how light or dark the image is) the ISO ( shutter speed) framing, compasition… its more then just holding a button. Why must people insist that it is….

Like i said, im not mad at anyone, im just so frustrated that i got told this AGAIN. Most people who read my blogs know me, they know how ive worked to learn, took a job in a studio that i didnt like just for expierence, paid out the wazoo for my camera, lenses, books and other acessories and will soon be adding more. Sigh, i dont know.

When i got the comment, I did as i always do, thank them for their kind comments, reply with what camera i happened to use at the time and mention that i have put alot of time and effort into learning photography and such camera skills dont often just happen when a person picks up their camera from day one. Usually the person dosent even realize how rude they are sounding….. At least to me.

I feel much better now, and a bit silly about being so grumpy. I was probably a bit rude to the person who made the comment. I couldent help it… I should apologise because it was really rude…

I have other things to say, but lets not muck them up with my ranty pants entry.